Rule No. 6: Embrace who you are.

It’s who we are.
Doesn’t matter if we’ve gone too far.
Doesn’t matter if it’s all okay.
Doesn’t matter if it’s not our day.
Because it’s who we are.
Doesn’t matter if we’ve gone too far.
Doesn’t matter if it’s all okay.
Doesn’t matter if it’s not our day.

I’m awake. And I’m hungry.

I broke through last night. I battled with my demons face to face. I cried. I gnashed my teeth. And then I woke up and everything was clear.

I am who I am. I will never be the trophy. I will never be your devoted princess. I cannot be pinned or held down. I need to be free. And so I will be.

If I choose to love you- I will love you fiercely, passionately, and freely. Just recognize that you won’t be able to keep me. Until I tire of the game.

This is my warning bell. I now have to come with a disclaimer. If you choose to stay after that- it is your choice and yours alone. I absolve myself of the guilt.

I want to take you so much higher. Higher than you’ve ever been. I want you to feel everything. To think everything. Yes- even the pain. I want you to live. Live like you’ve never lived before.

And inside this- I will find my salvation. Through you- I will be complete. And when you lose your shine I will repeat the process. Over and over again. Until I’m done. And then I’ll settle awkwardly with another soul who’s lived like I have.

And I know just which number I hope to call….

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Me: This means I don’t need you anymore. But I still choose you.

Dark and Twisty: the student has become the master

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